Memories..
Screams..
Maybe... it wouldn't have ended that way...
I look up as a drop of water lands on my cheek. I blink in surprise at the sudden cold feeling and wipe the drop away.
Even as the drop leaves my face, another falls in it's place..
..and another...
..it doesn't stop...
Make it stop...please, make it stop...
The thought left as swiftly as it came. A memory of the past. I wonder if I'll ever forget it, the day I lost it. The pain, the screams, the blood.
"Crying changes nothing, you know." I glance over my shoulder. Standing but a few feet away was what I had dreaded and missed so much since it happened.
"I thought you left," I said as I changed my focus and walked away from her. I wanted to run, to scream like I had that day but I knew I had to stand my ground. Even if it was while walking away.
She fell into step next to me. Being five inches shorter than me and much too thin, she hardly seemed the dangerous type. I put space between us wearily. She looks up at me, no expression on her face. But her eyes managed to tell me the truth, she knew I was afraid of her.
She knew and she was laughing at me.
We walked like this for some time, lost in our own thoughts. The rain fell down around us in torrents but we were unaffected by it. Even when lightning flashed across the sky and thunder growled menacingly. My thoughts drifted back to where they had been earlier.
Rain... memories... my sins... maybe...
"It wouldn't have ended that way." Her soft voice caught me off guard. I stopped suddenly. My next thought. She knew. She smiled up at me. I gazed at her for some time. What I had dreaded, missed, was right in front of me. I was lost. No, I was caught. In a corner with no where to run. She knows this. So do I. I felt like screaming again. Running as far away as I could.
But I had no where to run. As all these thoughts chased each other in my head, I remembered. With that memory, I did what only I would be stupid enough to do. Something even she, who could read me like an open book, didn't expect.
I leaned down and kissed her.
It wouldn't...shouldn't have ended that way.
My world was crumbling around me again. It was collapsing and all I could do was pull her closer and pray.
A drop of water slides down my face to where our lips met. We both taste salt. She knew and so did I.
I could write more, maybe I will later on. But right now... I don't know what I want to write hehe -sweat- That's all for today~ Comments on cbox are welcome :3
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