I give up;

My light blue pen refused to work, even though there's more than plenty of ink left in it.

I haven't touched my homework and am feverishly hoping I die sometime tonight.

I'm fucking sick of talking to Dude.

I don't know what to do anymore ):



Well, I promised myself I'd post today for the weekend so here it is! Exams are looming closer and closer and I swear on the life of my green pen that I WILL FAIL. I'm just too lazy to study D:

On Friday night, talked to Soulie. He was depressed and I feel horrible for not talking to him since then. I keep messaging him but he doesn't reply. I don't know if it's my side or his that's malfunctioning. Tetti was on a few days ago and this morning. Both times he told me he had a dream involving me xD I hope it didn't have anything to do with me dying wtf o.o

Talked to Jamjam too! I miss her so damn much. We caught up on each other since it's been three years or so since we last saw each other's face. Yes dear, I'm fuglier now. She might be coming to my school next year! Although I don't want her to suffer as much as I am now, I really need someone who I know doesn't hate me or is being two-faced in front of me. Dude, I mean you.

I tried putting up with her for the past two days. Especially today since we ran into each other when the rentals and I were having lunch. Gawd, I had a hard time laughing at anything she said. Do you know another thing I noticed about her?

She's a fucking copycat. I mean, I know I copy too sometimes, but just because I used 'dude' so much in a day, suddenly she's using it everytime she's being sarcastic with me. Not only that, the way I spell some words too, she's copied that. And when I started using 'wtf' so much in messages and when I talk, suddenly from someone who doesn't fucking curse, she's using it EVERY FUCKING DAMN TIME SHE UTTERS A SENTENCE. Even I think that's just wrong, rude and stupid. I curse a lot, yea. But not until it seems so crass.

You don't like your teachers, fine. Don't copy my way of talking about them. BT#1 probably thinks we're twins. Guess what BT? I'D RATHER FUCKING DIE THAN BE RELATED TO THAT FUCKTARD.

As is obvious, I'm still very pissed off over Friday. ):

Well, I'm not going to dwell on it, lest I break down and start punching glass again. Stupid, stupid, stupid! >< Fingers stopped bleeding and the cuts are pretty much gone, but it's still sore. Shit, wtf came over me? Yesterday, I woke up late cause class was canceled. Skipped breakfast, ate lunch and then came home and ate some more haha. Mum was trying out a new recipe so I was the guinea pig. I'm as fat as one too. D: Dad came home from the convention he went to. After that, I watched some tv with them and then did shit on the computer. I finished Jojobear's header and the one I have up now due to boredom.

I'm still not happy with your header, Jojobear. Honestly, if something isn't right, TELL ME RAWWWR. Or I won't be able to sleep at night wtf ): Oh right, and Jojobear, I don't think you should change your theme to another anime. It's obvious you're fucking obsessed with Zero, heck, so am I! He's that hawt *w*. You're like, the only person I know who's using that skin and I think you should keep it. Change it if you want, but keep the VK theme. You're unique that way haha. Sept and JohXhin had better agree with me too wtf D<.

Sorry to Alyssa and Pontianak for not wishing you happy birthday on your actual birthdays ):

I was so bloody obsessed with...whatever I was obsessed with at that time, that I forgot to wish you guys. Actually, Alyssa cause I didn't know your birthday. Sorry I wished you so late. I know we don't have a good history together, and I sincerely hope we'll get along better after this. I have no grudges against you and I'm feverishly hoping you don't have any against me either.

Pontianak, cause I gave you your present early and forced you to not open it before your birthday lest a ghost of a donkey comes and haunts your house. Since there's no reports of ghosts, I'm pretty sure you kept to your promise.

Hope the two of you had an awesome day. If you didn't, there's always next year!

Coffee almost out, need to restock. My teeth are freakin' yellow from too much caffeine. Wtfff lol. Sigh, brought this on myself so I have to deal with it. LE SIGH WTF.

Today,went for replacement tuition with TM. So boring, Mule wasn't around zzzz. After the sleeping session, went online to catch Tetti on and I actually did! Wooot! We talked for like, 15 minutes while he told me about his dream. Seriously dude, you're too technical. Left the house at around 12.30, went to KLPac, got the tickets for 'Men In Tutus' and then went for lunch.

Ran into Dude at the stall we were eating at. She starting pointing at me and waving madly then dragged her parents over and forced them to sit at our table. Fuck you, asshole. Didn't the fact that I didn't wave back or that I ignored you despite obvious stares from the rentals suggest to you that I WAS NOT IN THE FUCKING MOOD TO TALK TO YOU?!?

We left asap, cause mum knew about my 'thing' against Dude. We arrived like 10 minutes before the show started so we went straight into the theater. It was really funny, if you guys like ballet and comedy, this is totally the show for you. (:

After the show, I said I was hungry so dad drove us to Old Town White Coffee in BP. Mum wanted tea at first but instead got Prawn Noodles. I wanted ice-cream but instead, got both that and Asam Laksa. Lol, the pictures had something to do with the choices we made. Dad just drank coffee and waited for us to finish.

We came home and I did all the usual shit I do on Sundays. Ironed the clothes, cleared up the bathroom (Cause Aunt Lucy is coming over) and tidied up the spare room for her. She'll probably be reaching in an hour from now so maybe I'll stay up to greet her. Oh, and wish her happy mother's day. I smsed her earlier today but she didn't reply. Meh, well. I'll wish her again once she gets here haha.

Tomorrow I've got to go look at Dude again. I don't want to hate her so much but she's making it so fucking hard. There's just so much wrong with how I am when I talk to you that it doesn't even take a moron to tell that I don't need you complaining about how much a bitch a person is. I happen to like them a lot, kthx. You want to be bitchy, check if I like them or not. Even if I don't, I do not like how you talk about them. You don't know shit about them and yet you say they're this and that and that and this.

Go fuck yourself, fucktard. Please.




Off to lie in bed so the rentals don't start complaining about how I won't be able to wake up tomorrow. Right now, I really don't want to wake up tomorrow.